Dear Projector,

I recently came across this entry I wrote in my journal on July 13th, 2010, in the infancy of my personal development journey, long before discovering Human Design, and that I'm a 3/6 Emotional Projector. Who knows, these downloads may have been preparing me for, or actually part of my deconditioning process.

Why is it I often feel like a bystander as I watch my life unfold before my eyes?

Wanting to participate, but waiting for the right moment, an invitation,

or content to just make observations.

[It's] as if I'm studying a primitive culture, ancient civilization, or the wild on safari.

Frozen in time, fear, scared to succeed, scared to fail, scared to try.

Wanting better, different, change, yet clinging to security, routine.

Knowing that I'm made for more, that I'm here to guide.

Longing to be the free uninhibited Bohemian spirit within me and live a Renaissance life,

yet I am paralyzed by decisions, consequences, what-ifs, and outcomes.

Constantly asking, What should have... could have...been?"

Have you experienced this feeling too?

I've since learned many ways to gain traction. I'm now becoming aligned with my passion and purpose more and more every day, and even though I still struggle with this tension on occasion, I have the clarity, insight, and direction now to know how to better navigate when these feelings surface.

Projector, Are you ready to step into the power of your potential and purpose?

-In the dance, xo

Jen